± douceur de vivre

Warmth

2012-02-14T01:11:00.000+08:00

I felt what you were trying to do for me.
Thank you babe :)
I love you.
Happy Valentine's.

Wondering

2012-02-11T00:19:00.001+08:00

Do I really expect that much?

OTW

2012-02-08T16:48:00.003+08:00

to complete year 2. 3 more assignments to be done and im down. time for work, earn money, bkk, holidays and school.. AGAIN.

Trying So Hard

2012-02-05T17:58:00.002+08:00

I dont know why is it so hard for you to care more. Going through a shitty period of my life and no one is there.

What for I care so much then?

It's just so hard for me.

Happy First Year

2012-02-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

I love you :)

From FB, umm quite true

2012-02-01T02:10:00.002+08:00

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
...4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

Best Thing Ever.. For Now

2012-01-27T00:09:00.001+08:00

I get to go to BKK with larry, his bro and serene OMG OMG. How am i supposed to contain the excitedness inside me till March?!

Damn True.. For Me (Bold)

2012-01-22T01:59:00.001+08:00

A simple woman who always shows what kind of moods she is in. You can tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it’s in her character. A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules.

She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong. She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman.

Everything she does will look good, and she has all the women’s tricks you can think of. She can manipulate men without them knowing it. If you think her going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes.

You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smiles and she can really hide her feeling. She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more.

If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking, strong and healthy man especially if she starts to compare with her friends’ boyfriends.

It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career. She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no “fond of”, or “like” for her. Love has no “may be”, or “perhaps”. If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered.

Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won’t be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress. She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her.

Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew. If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future.

If you are nice to hear, she wills double that to you as well. A real fair woman and she like to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let she broke and has no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being “Poor”. She loves to have faced, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver.

She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a “Nobody”. If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.

Quoted but so damn fucking true

2012-01-22T00:46:00.002+08:00

" We got too much to worry, too much to handle. Too little time to breathe, too little space to rant. Too many expectations from others, too little capacity to meet them. Too many friends with too many flaws, too little grace to overlook them. Too much talk, but so little action. Too many ideas, but too little room to express them, too little listeners. Too many ways to unwind, too little money to carry them out. Too long a life, yet not qualitative.
Too much to say, too little words to express. "

YOU KNOW WHAT?

2012-01-22T00:04:00.001+08:00

FUCK EVERY SINGLE LITTLE DAMN THANG!

Last December

2012-01-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

Hey y'all. Been pretty busy lately it's killing me. Just some pictures :) I'm lazy to blog boohoo. Will be posting what I did or what's just pretty going on in my life in December 2011.

Just some pictures, will continue with the rest tomorrow because it's time to sleep. Goodnight dudez.

Insane Week Ahead

2012-01-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

Monday: School, stay back do comm skills + studio + KK
Tuesday: School, KK, rehearse, get present?
Wednesday: School, excursion, get present? (If I can't get it done by tuesday)
Thursday: School, most relac day for the week but chop need chiong studio maybe KK
Friday: School, home, pack, changi, stayover?
Saturday: Birthday chalet
Sunday: Temple plus still need to find time for work

OMG LOOKING AT THIS I NEED A BREAK ALREADY ):

Something Different

2012-01-06T01:24:00.002+08:00

Could be just me.. again. Yes again because this isn't the first time I'm feeling this way. I envy your insensitivity because I rather it be me. I rather I noticed less things, take note of lesser things, care less etc. How great would my life be? It will be so many better because alot of things won't matter then. I won't tell you because then again you will tell me I'm thinking too much yada yada.

I guess that many things have changed since we first started. It's just so hard for me sometimes. When it all comes down on me, I just need a shoulder to tell me I'm okay. I'll be here for you.

There are somethings that aren't so nice to talk about in public but I really need a platform for me to rant and say out all that I need.

Just a note to myself, to stop being so dependent on the people I love. It's hard but it's better I try now. Really. I don't want to go breaking down because I know deep down, no one cares about you more than they care about themselves. Rough.

I really want to feel loved and pampered. That's why I absolutely adore sweet gestures, but they never come from you or sometimes, even my parents or my closest friends.

I swear I don't even expect much. Yes maybe in the past but not now. I kinda gave up alot. All I want is someone to let me feel that tingling lovey dovey warmth feeling of love and care.

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Happy Heart

2012-01-04T02:00:00.003+08:00

Goodnight. I love sleeping with a happy heart. I now wish for more sleeping time. School's a drag~~

For Now..

2012-01-04T00:02:00.000+08:00

A few things on my list:
- Get a nice organiser for 2012
- Perhaps a nice big calendar for my study so I won't go around missing things or events going on
- Get a nice CNY bag
- Snatch the dress I want on LB (haha!)
- Dinner at home 1 or 2 times a week
- Slim down for now so that I don't look horrid in my clothings (been eating hell loads recently)
- Do my work diligently (I REALLY HOPE!)
- More accessories for CNY as well

That's all for now I guess.

Today's the first day of school. Pretty alright and erm, kinda waste of a time. Had Yong Tau Foo again. Omg this is all Joey's fault. Slept in class for approximately 40 minutes? Then left early and went to L's house for a nap and just lepak. Won't be meeting for a while I guess. We are all busy people. Good news to myself! Have to help out in Open House this year just for thursday! No school on Friday & Saturday but... Sian! Need to do studio and complete KK ASAP.

Work for now:
- Studio
- KK
- Comm skills.

Hope we won't drag out time for comm skills project meeting tomorrow. So damn lazy lor! But yes I have to do my work diligently. Hope it won't drag because lao niang me wants go home for dindinz. Some Esplanade trip tomorrow, hope it doesn't last long.

Some planning I have to do for studio now. Toodles!

Me Likey This Pic

2012-01-03T02:22:00.002+08:00

Why oh why is it blurry! ):

11th

2012-01-03T00:40:00.001+08:00

Been with L for 11 months now. Can be considered slow. Haha. Known each other for 16 months, but we dated for 3 months before getting together so okay what! Went to shop like mad at town today, finally he got the shoes that he wanted if not someone damn angst manz. I finally bought some accessories I wanted and BAM got a new pair of shoes for ten buckaroos. It's a steal, last pair somemore and my size wahahah. Say what?! Ok now I have to remember to send my package out tomorrow, been dragging for days.

School starts tomorrow. 6 weeks, I can do it. Can't help it but say oh man! I DONT WANT SCHOOL. *whines*

2nd

2012-01-02T04:14:00.000+08:00

Ok time to sleep goodnight. I hope my application succeeds! Argh why is school re-opening so fast and I really hope to have some awesome plans for the year, 2012 please be a blast! :)

2012

2012-01-01T23:16:00.002+08:00

Last hour of 01/01/2012. I pretty much slept my first day of 2012 away. 2011 really passed by damn fast, like a blink of an eye. I cannot quite believe it's over. Spent my last of 2011 and first moments of 2012 with my boyfriend. When I think back, I know that I have been through a lot this year but I just can't sum it up? Too many ups, too many downs. I seen things clearer, relationships, people, things. I haven't thought of my New Year resolutions yet. I just hope for a better me. I really want to be better. To be a better daughter, a better friend, a better girlfriend, just a better person. Want to try way more things these year. I wish that everyone stays healthy, nothing's more important than that. I want to be rich also la, who doesn't? I shall leave all the bad memories behind and focus more on the future. I look forward to a better year.

Virgin Swimming Trip

2011-12-28T23:53:00.001+08:00

Went to Anchorvale Community Club to swim today with the boy. Our virgin swimming trip with one another. It was fun but weak me, swam for half an hour and injured my arms. Wtf manz. Played with slides. Went to eat LJS and went back to nap. Woke up and played band hero for hours. Haha, awesome game. Jam jam jam. Dinner and home after that. Simple but fun day! <3

Too much to handle?

2011-12-27T03:18:00.000+08:00

It's one of the nights where overthinking kills. 2011 is coming to an end. I'm not prepared for it. I'm scared. Everything is going way too fast, I'm only starting to think what have I been doing this year. I'm just starting to get adapted to everything and now, it's the time for change again. When I'm young, I look forward to a new year because every year seem to passing so damn slowly and I can't wait to grow up. It's different now, I want every year to pass slowly because I'm afraid of growing up. I'm afraid of change, but change is the only constant. I'm afraid of responsibilities, afraid of dying, afraid of everything. I'm skeptical about the future because I really don't know what I want to do with my life.

I'm 19, I'm schooling, I'm doing nothing as time passes by. Just things like what normal 19 year old do. Go to school, head out, enjoy life, laugh, feel sad, do stupid things, networking and all. I have high expectations of myself but I only know how to think and how to talk about it. I never put myself to action. I can never bear the responsibility, all i want to do is to hide under my parents' wings. I'm materialistic, I want to be fucking rich but all i fucking do is spend and spend my money like it's free. I know it's not, I cannot help myself. I don't have my own earning power, all I do is leech money off my parents and my boyfriend. I hate being broke and I know I have to do something about it but i get all lazy and I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm turning 20 next year, I want to be independent but then again, I'm a coward. I know that being independent has to come, I'm just unwillingly to face it. I'm fear that I don't have the willpower to take on the whole world because as I grow older, the world seems to be such a scary place.

As years passes by, I start to realise that as I grow older so is everyone. When I'm younger, I don't have thoughts of people passing away. I think that my parents are here for me, forever. Fact is, no. I am fucking scared they will leave me. You know life is so fucking unpredictable, it's scares the shit out of me. I can cry just thinking about it. They are so damn bloody important to me. I don't think I can handle people that I love so much leaving me. I hold relationships so dearly. I don't show it but it's really like that in my heart. I treasure relationships alot. I wish time can stop.

I'm a person who is kind of private. I don't like to relate my problems to people. I feel like I'm a burden or is either that I don't know how to explain myself. I'm not good with words, I'm not good at anything. I'm scared people get bored of me, then they leave me. I hate loneliness, I cannot stand being alone but then again I love me-time. I'm so damn contradicting that I don't even understand myself sometimes.

This post made me realised what kind of fucking coward am I. I cannot seem to handle my own emotions properly. I get depressed easily, I overthink, I'm too damn sensitive for my own good. I don't dare to run after what I want because I am scared of rejection. I am too damns cared for anything. Anything new. I wish that I can stop living the moment or live in the past and move forward with the future.

I feel like I cannot be that personal with anyone. No, really with anyone. Not my sister, not my parents, not my boyfriend, not my close friends, not anybody. I find it so hard to open up about my personal feelings it's kills me deep down. Why am I like that? I can only write out how I feel. I guess this blog is really dear to me.

I hope that I will end this year smoothly and begin a new year with lots of hope. I really hope 2012 will be a great year for me.

MERRYXMAS

2011-12-26T03:36:00.001+08:00

Christmas started off bad but it ended off with a blast! :) Good day everybody.

Depressed..

2011-12-25T03:00:00.000+08:00

on a christmas eve + night. Thank you so damn much. You are the person I care so much for and willing to go to extremes just to do something for you, I don't know what seems so fucking hard for you to do so? Someone, please talk to me now? I need to get this load off my chest.

Xmas Eve

2011-12-25T02:38:00.001+08:00

X'mas Eve turned out to be pretty fun. Enjoyed the night with my 5N babies. :) I love you guys, have fun at the sleepover.

Sherlock Holmes

2011-12-22T20:35:00.001+08:00

Watched Sherlock Holmes just now, kinda boring because there was too much talking. Not really worth watching but it's kinda funny. I wanna watch New Year's Eve! I think I'm going to swim next week.

Simple Yet Fufilling

2011-12-22T02:45:00.002+08:00

Had my cervical jab this morning with my sister then lunch with my mummy. Been sleeping really late and I have to wake up so early today just to take the jab. Once i reached home I collapse on the sofa and took a nap for 2 plus hours. Hand is kinda aching though. Hope it stops in a day or two. I love just being alone with my mummy <3

I haven't seen Larry for a total of three days but it kinda seem damn long. Met him at the bus stop and went to town. Luckily we don't have to take the bloody red line, pun. Went to buy tickets for Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol, had pudding milk tea and then to collect my pay which was dragged for 3 damn months. Both of us were starving during early evening already so we headed to Hot Tomato. Yumz. Had salmon linguine and L had teriyaki chicken with spaghetti I think. I love the mushroom soup, so creamy and mushroomy. Went to Centrepoint to shop for a while before the movie and L was damn happy with his buy. Keep showing off to me ok can. He keeps hitting me at my lower waist it hurts! You hear that mister?! Make it up to me. Rushed to the movie and I know he hates me to use my phone in the cinema.

Overall, Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol was quite awesome. 80% was action pack which I obviously love. I love action pack movies. Teehee. Tom Cruise still looks good. I like the story line as well. Some parts were like hold my breathe for sometime. Go catch it if you haven't. It's worth watching in my opinion.

Bus-ed home. Awesome day because I love to spend my days simply with my loved ones. :) I will upload pictures later or tomorrow if I'm not lazy like a pig. Time for some ANTM and then sleep. I need to adjust my body clock back!

SWIMSUITS

2011-12-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

Yay I finally got swimsuits that I totally love. I'm very picky when it comes to swimsuits because I have too many flaws, this suit is kinda alright and I love it to the max manz, I got it in two colours, deciding if I wanna get another one. :X

Current fav music addiction

2011-12-21T02:16:00.000+08:00

you said you missed me..

2011-12-20T23:57:00.002+08:00

but where are all the actions? I hate empty words. It's meaningless.

shoe loots

2011-12-20T20:57:00.002+08:00

Hello! I went out with my second aunt and my sis to vivo today for lunch and xmas gift shopping! Had Sushi Tei for lunch um nomz nomz. Awesome. The bill was not so awesome though, but I was stuffed.

the sis

bring us out must be very enthu uh haha!

I look like a man.

HAHA <3

nicest chawanmushi ever!

BEST BUTTER CLAMS OMGOMG

sis's dish

look at the steam!

*slurps* how can anyone hate beef? you are missing out on life!

BEST DESSERT EVER

i think i can eat it forever.

sparkly shoes, shermain legs fit this pair damn well but nah she dont wear heels she only tries it for fun!

er yi went home and the sister went to slack.

THANK YOU FOR BRINGING US OUT AND SPENDING SO MUCH ON US. Feel so bad about it actually. But nvm, I will repay you :)

I love the shoes I bought today. One pair from c&k and one pair from f21. I hope I dont die in the high one during CNY. Love it thou it's damn chio and class because of the finishing of the shoe. The other pair is for lazy days in school and casual days out, like darn cheap sia going for eleven buckaroos, it's quite comfy too when i tried it.

quite high plz!

I love how my arms looks skinny in this pictures but pictures are deception.

I walked around in vivo with this huge grease stain which I dont know where I kenna from

WTF MUCH

Say what?!

$

2011-12-20T02:35:00.003+08:00

i've been spending way too much now it's bad!

someone save me!

i cant help but feel

2011-12-20T02:35:00.001+08:00

weird, is it drifting?

i..

2011-12-19T01:23:00.001+08:00

wish to go back to the past.

±

2011-12-18T23:19:00.003+08:00

hey dudez, if you guys realised i changed my blog layout. yeah, it's about time. i think i spent like 2 hours during it last night.

today is stay home sunday. it's kinda awesome to like stay in, it's been some time. wont be meeting the boy till wednesday.

cycling tomorrow again at ecp, oh yeah! will be meeting 二姨 for lunch on tuesday, happiness. i miss her and my other aunties as well. it all started way back! i love you all really.

anyway, i guess i need some me time once in a while. i slept at like 10am this morning and i managed to finish watching 7 episodes of ANTM cycle 17. all the bitchiness and all, kinda scare me about the world sometimes. but i guess i'm ready to take it all on.. i hope, at least for now.

my life is kinda mundane right now. it's like the last few days of the year and i'm like WHAT?! haha, ok actually i'm just doing nothing at all?

it's freaks me out a little when time passes a little too quickly. the year is ending already.

i wonder how am i going to spend my christmas and new year.i feel like going to the siloso beach party, nah it isn't going to happen. i hope something wonderful will happen before this year ends, it will be great then!

new year is coming, so i guess it's time for new year resolutions?

damn, i really think i need to improve on myself. i really feel that i'm more than just another person, fact is, i'm just too afraid to take shots in life and things that are uncomfortable to be are out of the boundaries. maybe i should learn to be more daring.

and hopefully, to end off, im going to start posting properly on my blog. i really wish.

happy holidays everyone :)

gang sta'

2011-12-18T05:06:00.002+08:00

wanna fight is it? HAHA

happy times. x

stages

2011-12-18T04:27:00.000+08:00

i sincerely hope that the honeymoon period is not over ):
everything seems more mundane now and i kinda hate it.
repeats same thing everyday, no more compliments, less hugs, all kinds of laziness sets in
everything is like lesser
and i really hope you will stop being so obsessed with your games, it's abit too much.
everything just comes in suddenly and i feel so weighed down by it so it's making me grumpy.
i really wanna be more pampered because i'm like that, i really love being pampered
call me annoying, asking for too much, whatever, just let me whine plz
and my shoulder is aching the fucking crap outta me it's making me even grumpier the hell
i hate being so grouchy, grumpy, annoyed and fucked up

and why do they seem so happy even after so long?
im starting to feel a little less happier day by day and that's bad.

maybe and that's why fairytales don't exist.

number jibber

2011-12-18T01:20:00.002+08:00

If you were born on the:

1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.

2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are number 2.

3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are number 3.

4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.

5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.

6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.

7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.

8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are number 8.

9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.

Number 1
You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous
on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You
always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most
likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are
likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most
likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a
spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you
will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of
the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in
your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you &
your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a
pioneer, independent & original your best match is 4, 6, 8 while a good match
would be with 3, 5 and 7.

Number 2
No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You
day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for
every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change
according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of
musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet
as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a
sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a businessperson. You
are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you
settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you
are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will
sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad
vision. You make a well-balanced person. Your best match is 2, 7,5, and 9 no
other people can put up with you!

Number 3
You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots
of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope
with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you
would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a
point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are
not a cool person. It’s not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But
once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You
always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and
problems but they won’t be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love
money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look
after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being
generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom,
creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!!
Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5.

Number 4
You are very stubborn, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in
life, very cool and helpful. You might repel people away from you, you may cause
nuisance to others if you area man, as you gifted are with understanding other
people’s problems. If you are a girl, you excel in your studies and arts. If you
are a guy you spend most of your time with girl friends and you tend to have too
much fun with your mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and
get on with their life and you will be left empty handed. So be careful! You
love to spend. Your positive side is that you are always around to help family
and friends. You always fall in love with those younger than you. You often live
with disappointments but you will take good care of your family. You need to be
careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart (ahaks!). And
beware of your relationships too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a
hit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order. Your best match 1, 8. Good
match 5, 6, and 7.

Number 5
You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your
enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will
be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will
always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help
your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down
you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships – even if you are
married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with
anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You
learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good
match 6, 8.

Number 6
Ooopppss… You were born to enjoy! You don’t care about others. I mean you
always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either
education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people
who you think are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your
mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But
if you are a number 6 men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships
until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged
early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person
of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and
after all you can heal this world’s wounds to make peace for everyone because
you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step
further.. Your best match 7, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5.

Number 7
You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art,
singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value
your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain
age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s faces
lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have
everything in your life but with worries throughout your lifetime. You need to
get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don’t, then you
might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone’s joy. Your
best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4.

Number 8
You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand
you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the
one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way
through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who
will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very
reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and
always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often
late), then your had lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems
such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly-
disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take
you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your
Best match 1, 4 and 8. Good match 5.

Number 9
You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong,
physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will
think it’s still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there!
Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will
have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very
naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been
involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when
you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho
type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or
banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but
you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are
humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve
targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model
for everyone. Your best match 3, 5, 6, and 9. Good match 2.

clash

2011-12-15T02:51:00.000+08:00

why oh why must all the dates clash?
this makes me very sad.
on a happier note, ok there's no happier note.
i have to lug alot of newspapers to school again tmr! ):
BYE

/edit
been sleeping kinda late recently.
it's bad.
havent been spending much time with the boy.
miss him so much.

expectations

2011-12-11T14:35:00.001+08:00

i hate expecting because it disappoints but i can't help but expect.

i wanna be

2011-12-11T14:26:00.001+08:00

happy and to be filled with love too ):

boys who..

2011-12-11T01:17:00.001+08:00

hug from the back
lend you their jacket
cheer you up when you’re down and love you when you need it most
smiles at you for no reason
plays with little kids
hugs you back tighter
who smiles everytime they see you
respects my opinion, even if they disagree
let me run into their arms when im scared
can sit silently with without being awkward
hug you without quickly pulling away
dedicate songs to you
surprises you
say sweet things between kisses
sing with you in the car
text back long replies
reach for your hand during movies
help you choose clothes
stares at you when you get distracted
kiss your booboos
make you dinner
gives playful hugs
aren't afraid to take silly pictures with you
care what happens to your family
meet on a vacation
make you laugh when you are crying
who has nice friends
have water fights with you
teach you the bro handshake
put their family first
think it's cute when you get mad
gives me massages
don't make you feel insecure
won't let you go to bed angry
are patient
share food and drinks with you
have goals
make you feel small in their arms
are silly
have tickle fights with you
hold your hands while driving
smile after they kiss you
hug you at a scary movie
asks you if you are home safely
whispers into your ears
buy you gifts
are adventurous
call you love
wrestles with you
wear their hat backwards
call you sweetie
tilts your chin up before kissing you
have ambition
wish you sweet dreams before going to sleep
let you lean on his shoulders
take pictures with you
let you fall asleep in his arms
buy matching shirts with you
surprise-hug you
text you every morning just to let you know that you were on their mind
say to his friends "that's her"
lets you drive his car
make the first move
smell good
tight hugs
offer their hand for you to hold
kisses you on the cheek
walk you home
tells you that you are pretty when you are in sweats and without make up
notice all the little things
kiss your forehead
watch classic disney movies with you
who gives you piggy back rides
can hold a long conversation with you
have a good sense of style
love you for you
tell you how they really feel about you
watch your favourite tv shows with you
love smelling your hair when you are in his arms
talk to you until you get tired
get lost in your eyes
are gentlemen
play with your hair
text you first
surprise you with flowers
grab you by the waist
walk you to class
respect you
cuddle with you under the stars
watch chick flicks with you
are smart
take you on actual dates
experience something new with you
take you by surprise
know when you are having a bad day
will call instead of text
get to know your friends
pick you up from school
will take a long walk with you
are excited to show you off to their friends
tell you you are are beautiful out of the blues
make you laugh just to see your smile
whisper to you when giving you a hug
love your laugh

wah, thats alot, been browsing tumblr
it's tough being my boy huh

dempsey hills

2011-12-09T01:31:00.001+08:00

i stole larry's virgin trip to dempsey wahaha
i was being very frustrated after waking up from my nap because the big boss here insisted i wake up so that he can play his games !@#$%^&*()
had spaghetti for dinner, i was crazily full
dont know why my tummy was hurting that bad
was feeling moody and all because i didnt get to eat at my bukit timah hawker centre ugh
i wanted to go thomson to eat dinner on wed but fail also -.-
nvm nvm nvm, it's all over now.
luckily i wasnt craving for anything if not i will be in a rage ):
you see me now?! HAHA

grumpily headed on to nex because i was feeling grouchy and vex and my tummy was pissing the shit outta me.
end up i still cant find what i wanted for studio.
studio you suck i spend $40 on you already boohoo!

planned to head to dempsey hills way before
if i didnt get to go i sure shoot arrow liao.
larry said i owe him $500k
thanks dude.

had b&j! yumyum. good choice with the sensitive. (inside joke) teehee.
walked around dempsey for awhile and headed back.
went to gardens but plan fail cos stan chart rejected larry's $100 HAHA.
home we go!

im a happy girl because i get to see pretty xmas lights :') so beautiful.
and also because i get to eat icecream.
why?! cos im a kid like that.
im happy too because i get to have my own mini kbox session in the car.

oh we get to go to dempsey hill because larry gets to drive for 2 days.
it's all over now but nvm, there's still more chances.

picture time.

♥

glad

2011-12-09T01:06:00.001+08:00

im glad i made the right choice back then :)
i hope indecisive people, although im one myself too sometimes
it's just a turn off when indecisiveness shows on a guy.

im happy to have larry by my side.
i love you babe. ♥

rush

2011-12-06T18:14:00.001+08:00

it's the kinda rush i dont really like having.
i hate rushing because i like having the relax way out.
but nothing lasts that way, so i got to deal with it.
everything is like this city, hectic.

been drained in schoolwork recently.
studio is making me crazy.
im kinda glad i almost finish my ysk, just wanna finish and get done with it.
left with sannie, i wanna finish in 2 or 3 hours today!

i really wanna go out on wednesday and thursday
it's not everyday larry gets to drive out the whole day
i wanna be driven everywhere!

AND I HAVE BEEN SPENDIN' ALOT RECENTLY ):
studio i already spent like $40 bucks
wtf manz. im broke enough already

happy to say that i can receive my pay :D
AFTER 3 LONG MTHS.
really wanna fuck them upside down with my language already
everyone is asking me about my pay~
it's here so maybe i can get my SII? :)

can't wait for chinese new year to be here.
new clothes, new resolutions, new bed sheets, new curtains, new hair.
new new new, i love new things, but i hate change.
ahhh, im so fickle minded and weird sometimes.

submission has been pushed to tuesday for studio
this means more time, but more work has to be done ):
IM SCARED FOR MID CRIT
but now still far, so i dont really care teehee

had kk today, glad to say that we finally get to hand up our work.
it's been dragging for a month.

skipped studio and went to amk to eat with nect
bought materials, sigh byebye my money
oh shit and they say cannot claim
my receipts are all ready for you to claim~!~

to end of with this ranting long and boring post,
I HATE THE SCHOOL'S INTERNET CONNECTION. YOU SUCK BALLS.

make out friday

2011-11-28T14:30:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA only larry and i know what happen
he damn zai, i wonder how can he just heck care and walk past
still stare like no tomorrow
i damn shy and scared i disturb them LOL
heheh i wanna go back there and play on the roof!

okok larry?

ann siang hill

was bored didnt know where to go becos the stupid movie we wanted to watch was sold out ):

damn sad

i was grumbling the whole time

i was wearing a mazi becos im sick and im afraid that i will be super cold in the cinema

but neh!

no movie ):

wednesday please

had lunch at cathay so i can eat my med

kinda miss the food there becos i used to work there

maybe she rmbs me thats why she gave me a 5 cent discount?

HAHA

wt this picture is damn funny

dont know he looking at what!

explored the area abit

kao, lots of pretty shops

went into fred perry

stress, only got us

wu xiang for early dinner!

we did alot of walking that day

went to some temple

and i forgot how we walked to MBS

helluva walk!

fail photography

fav pic of the lot!

had to put on makeup if not i will look as pale as a ghost

LOL

hehehe nice place

wanna go back there

some zilian pics

this couch was damn comfy!

was slacking here with philonew when we were working for VMware

damn shiok uh

chatted for quite a while here

grab some snacks at MBS

we were both dying of thirst when we reached marina

grumpy kids

finally got some mountain dew

and home we go!

sick

2011-11-27T23:22:00.001+08:00

been kinda sick recently

went to the doc and all

have to remember to hand in my MC tomorrow

if not sure tio gan by sannie :X

sick of school already

just another 2-3 weeks and term break

really cant wait!

must make plans to go overseas plz ):

but i got no money

ugh why why why!

IKEA

2011-11-27T23:10:00.001+08:00

decided to skip school on a wednesday

i forgot which to go to IKEA

teehee

why do i always look so pale ):

had our favvvvv curry rice

die also must take pic show mom about the bed frame lol

um nom nom!

i hate my round face ):

im a baby so i whine and whine then larry will cut the chicken for me LOL

i swear that day was damn unhealthy

the whole day was filled with fried food damn

after ikea we went to vivo to walk

bus-ed home

sit until butt ache

so much to update but lazy.

think i will schedule posts

qt pie

2011-11-25T13:00:00.001+08:00

19th

2011-11-24T01:04:00.001+08:00

hello, am going to blog about my 19th birthday

a few weeks have past and my emotions has been kinda unstable for like the previous week

now i'm back and happy

time to blog about happy things

but im sad that i turned 19.

no more 十八一朵花!

HAHA

had quite a few celebrations

the first one was with my bbygirls

siaopo and qinyi!

they booked crystal jade xlb for me :)

i love xlb

had a bunch that night!

see siaopo help me pluck prawns <3

*gives you want face?*

lublubz

replaced my bday cake with ice cream from cold rock!

nice nice, but i swear my tummy was going to burst

hl sent us home after that

thanks girls for the celebration and present, love you guys!

feel so blessed to have you all

our bday celebration custom no change one

always us 3!

next, on the actual day!

larry had the honor to celebrate with me

but before that the girls and the class gave me a surprise! <3

it's a pity school ended so late

headed to marché for dinz

im very suaku and it's the first time im actually there to have my meal

and i had to snap the pics secretly so i had to use L's iphone

love this rosti

the sour cream makes everything so perfect

but i think very hard la one person finish this

salmon, damn heaven me likez

the ice cream larry always wanted to treat me!

ahahaha, your wish came true bb

see how he snap the pics!

i still love the pic thou

i love christmas tree decos!

why chu look so sianz?

baby bought me my cake and it's time for the tradition!

cut cake!

damn funny when he sing the bday song to me aww!

i know he will be very happy when he sees this pic

thanks for the necklace, love you!

see im wearing it all the time now :)

uniqlo king

time to head home and tada cake again

it's my third cake for the day

belated birthday dinner by chan mali chan!

had our dinz at din tai fung

also first time there

had xlb againz

mad love for this dessert

can someone tabao this for me now?

my beef noodles

belated birthday treat from the girls at sushi tei!

love the stock damn nice but a lil salty

milo shaved ice yumz

thank you everyone for the wonderful birthday celebrations!

and all the wishes as well :)

i dont have all the pictures with me, so i cant blog fully ):

nevertheless, i enjoyed every moment

heart shapes for all of you!

♥

one question

2011-11-14T21:00:00.001+08:00

doesn't your heart hurt when you see me being like this?
it's not how am i usually.

im feeling unexceptionally unhappy.
how great.
november, you suck.

it's a form of recognition

2011-11-13T21:04:00.001+08:00

like i said on twitter, it's a form of recognition.

it's feel like i'm being left behind.

i'm not being petty or what.

it's just that who likes this feeling?

you get that?

this tinge of unfairness feeling inside me.

i'm not being skeptical, i'm not being sensitive.

i definitely have prove to say so?

it goes way back.

yeah, i know it's unfair at all too for L sometimes because i cannot declare and make it official with him because of my parents?

now my mom knows about it.

i tried, trust me.

my parents, esp my dad is super traditional and very protective.

how the hell am i supposed to break the news?

either i'll risk getting kicked off of the house or i will have to break this r/s.

sucks to be me.

back to prove.

i really really don't wanna say anything or what.

it's just bottled up inside me.

i have to find some place to release it.

i'm uncomfortable to tell someone so much, i'm only good at writing it out.

until i find a way to make a post private, till then

too much unhappiness bottled inside

2011-11-13T18:54:00.001+08:00

thats why it all comes together.
all together.
it's my birthday month and everything sucks.

sometimes i really wish i can just be oblivious to every single thing.
every. single. shit.

that way i can live my own happy little life.

been really sensitive lately.
you have got to stop it pamela.

the fact is i cannot stop thinking because factors show me so.

i hate crying

2011-11-13T01:16:00.001+08:00

I hate it.
I really really hate it.

I hate expecting.
That is because it always brings me down.

I wish that you would bring me out sometimes without me planning.
Drive me out sometimes, surprise me sometimes.
Stay up for me sometimes.
Talk to me until i fall asleep first.
Be more adventurous.
Just once or twice, you'd stop thinking about the future, about the consequences and just the live the moment.

I dont cry.
Ever since W i stopped crying, i swore to myself that i wouldn't cry in front of anyone.
I didn't.
I don't want you to see me cry.

Why was i so dumb in the past anyway?
Whatever was it, i learnt my lesson.

These two days were the days that i felt that it was so damn hard to hold my tears back.

I know it's impossible for me to ask you to change or something.
I just have to live without it.

& i'm just less important.
Factors just show me.

never yesterday

2011-11-13T00:07:00.002+08:00

i wondered to myself if you would ask me if i'm alright..
about yesterday.
but no, you didn't.
you just couldn't see it, could you?
that little tinge of sadness within me.

we were out, along with your friends.
well yes we have had some fun.
but there's one thing i hated.
your refusal to listen.
sometimes it's on purpose i know it, sometimes it isn't.
i was used to it, i got over it as quickly as i could.

bus ride home, topics seem to be getting lesser.
everything seemingly seem less sincere.
i asked which stop you wanted to alight.
i knew that you wouldn't want to walk the longer way.
i just tried asking, and maybe if you agreed.
i would feel happier.
something wasn't there.
the warmth wasn't there.

as we bid goodbye, i wish there would be a little something more.
i miss those forehead kisses which seems rare now.
gave each other goodbye hugs, i turned away wanting to head home.
you held me back, i was happy for a very very brief moment.
i thought you were gonna hug me one last time and asked me if i'm alright.
opps sorry, it's just that i had forgotten to pass you your things you bought earlier on.
i quickly said bye and headed the direction for home.
i didn't want to look into your eyes because i'm afraid something like yesterday will happen.
but the point is..
you didn't know what happened last night.

on a happier note, i came home, looked at myself in the mirror for a few seconds and told myself everything's gonna be alright, it will be.

well, it sucks to be me because i always look happy and strong.
i always appear to care less for things.
the truth is, im fragile and i tend to feel alot of things.

and when i go to sleep feeling unhappy, i wake up feeling unhappy too.

all in all, im just disappointed.

sometimes, there's just so much unhappiness in me i just don't know how to show.
so many things i want to express but i suck at expressing.
everything might just turn out to be a mess.
even if i want to show it, i don't know who to turn to.

i hate change.
i miss us.
the ones that we used to be.

but pamela, the only thing that is constant is change.
and the only love that will never change, is our parents' love.

goodnight.

111111

2011-11-11T23:53:00.001+08:00

nothing much happened.
i didnt spend it the way i wanted, how about you guys?
it was disappointing and i kinda hated it.
from that moment, i knew that things have changed.
hopefully, it's only a little.
i held it back, until now..
idk if it's me being sensitive or what.
i just don't know.
just quiet, really quiet at that moment.
and luckily the surroundings were dim.

everything just feel lesser and more insignificant now.

i just wish things were better.
where at least went a way that i wanted.
but no, it didn't.

i really wondered if it's guilty conscience.

it's alright, tomorrow will be a better day.

FIRST WEEK DOWN

2011-10-24T00:58:00.000+08:00

woosa, first week down
nine fucking more to go
i can do it i can do it
*chants*
pretty alright
everything seems ok now
phew

been wearing my HH cardigan ever since i received it
now i know why im broke
i hate being broke T.T
i cannot stop spending leh how

my comm skills teacher likka not bad leh
kk doesnt seem so guailan
studio still ok i just cant get my myself to start doing work
sian, like now i wanna sleep dont wanna do
i shall do it in nirit's class tmr
sannie class is abit scary i so scared idk how to describe la
i think ysk will be damn relax wooz

dk what i doing everyday after sch sia
rly dk
monday i acc larry to a sinseh, haircut + dinner
tuesday i met larry again
wednesday met linda and dex for lunch, josh for himym and then home for dinner
thursday cityhall with my girls, cab home with larry at raffles we can claim HAHA
fri went larry's house and borrowed a sadistic book at a library
saturday went town with larry forever town omg
sunday is family day

all my pics are like in larry's phone tsk
machiam my phone like that
inside way too many of my zilian pix

HAHA

omg pictures from my hols
once school start my pictures also become lil
my face condition is likka cui.com
damn sian
dk is my menses coming or what SIAN UH

forget it im lazy bye!

day 2

2011-10-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

yes pretty ok

wore my sailor shorts for the second time

it's kinda weird that the zip in at the other direction

went larry's house for dinner

it's awesome how i can complain to him about so much stuff

goodnight!

hi sem 2

2011-10-18T00:28:00.000+08:00

you suck

i hate the new timetable it sucks

4 hours break in between

it doesnt even make sense

and hopefully my seatin arrangement dont change

i definitely hope sem 2 will be a better one really plz

dont make my life miserable

thanks

i wanna enjoy it

BTW I JUST GOT A HAIRCUT WITH MY LOVE

AND IT'S AWESOME

byebye holiday

2011-10-17T01:45:00.000+08:00

time pass so fast la
why you so fast time
why you no slow down
i hate when i want you to pass really slowly you pass so fast ):
badass

my lips is motherfucking red i swear

it's abit weird

i think im too heaty

sigh my holiday ends just like that, just like that ): why is it so fast why? why?!
been slacking for the entire week, im damn lazy to put the pictures in my com
lazy ass is me, went to ACM on saturday, awesome day i must say! :)
just watched the thing kao i hate the ending leave me hanging, dk what's the meaning of it
louis drove us there and back aww thanks, had my cream puff fix yummy
im growing to a big fat girl with a big fat ass and tummy
blah, and i hate my timetable why is it so sucky?
AND I STILL HAVENT CUT MY HAIR ):
no time and lazy and i really miss my popo though i saw her today, im so scared of the future sigh
i have to sleep now soon now soon now soon ugh school sucks
tuesday's till 7pm, 7pm, ): wednesday till 6pm and larry has no school on wednesday ugh
and my birthday is coming i hope it's gonna be good

nothing in particular

2011-10-14T00:36:00.002+08:00

this is one of the days whr i feel so sick of life

something is wrong with me

sigh

sometimes i just want to act like a spoilt brat

be pampered and everything

havent felt like this since forever

i hate pretending

it's like you have to be nice when you dont feel like it

i cant just simply ruin people's mood because i feel like bullshit that day right

or something like that

well come on who doesnt pretend?

i have met a few scheming people

as in really scheming

wtf man

just give me one day to feel like a princess will do

i get to eat whatever i want

i dont have to think about money

i just chauffeured to wherever i want

i dont have to think about other people's feelings

i just shop all i want

i get to do what i want

sick of people telling me what to do

sick of seeing people's faces

sick of being constrained

sick of feeling fucked up

here's one shitty thing about me

i cant seem to confide in others about my problems

not even my sister, not even my bf

no nobody

i wonder if there's something wrong with me seriously

maybe i need some character building

everything gets so bottled up sometimes i just wanna give up

anyway i dont think anyone really bothers or cares

i always seem like im problem-less anyway

im just a girl who has many complaints

ugh, fuck this shit

and time for my body clock to go back to normal

if not when school starts = ggfied.

Big 2 for my dear Chinyee

2011-10-13T03:45:00.000+08:00

celebrated at BMC @ 313 for qinyi's advanced 20th, pictures shall do the talking

HAHAHAHA

the meaning behind this picture is damn funny

we all got high class drink then got coaster she dont have

LOL

eat until likka concentrate

love the prints :)

happy birthday dear

love you <3

hope you had fun!

food

2011-10-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

my life consists pretty much about food and food only
more than 3/4 of my pictures are about food

meetup with the girls

MOF with the boy

i still prefer the curry rice from toast box

this is the only photo that larry takes that i think i actually look nice

sakae, damn full yi ge

just take a look at the table

full of food

we had a hard time finishing

esp the meat

still can refill

can die manzx

she's so pretty and photogenic la!

jealous

im a size 3 for newlook shoes

damn small

sx and i kept on laughing at the shoe size difference

sorry la my leg small okok?

tauhuey and jifan :D

grey goose with my IT mates

all of us was high :/

blue mountain cafe

damn awesome the japanese curry baked rice

damn savoury

i can eat it like a million times

ate for for the second time this month already!

last minute card

damn fun :D

and had some fun catching up with siaopo too

larry was just sitting behind doing nothing

keep commenting only LOL

slice @ pomo

fast food literally

fuss free and all

not bad

it's a new stall

worked with sx for vmware again

seriously, it's one of the slackest jobs ever

ever man!

i have more food pictures

omg

im such a glutton!

working

2011-10-10T14:48:00.002+08:00

been working my ass off for 5 consecutive days

today's my off day ok for the rest of the week

awesome!

worked for i-works for WCEC

kao, likka tiring

im like sitting the whole day

sit until back ache

pretty relaxed minus some bunch of people who will drive you nuts

didn't really like some people back there thou

kinda pisses me off

but oh well, it's only for three days

worked with louis ond ay 1, abit like dont know what to say leh

kinda weird but cabbed home together haha

celebrated daddy's birthday at GT on wed :)

awww, awesome dinner

happy birthday daddy! i love you.

went baby's house on thurs and fri after work

chompchomp for supper after that with serene and louis

the beancurd likka bao can

after working for i-works, worked in shengshiong

i didnt know eugene was called eugene then i just saved his contact as supermarket

damn lol

was supposed to give out free plates if someone buys the royal umbrella rice

end up i also have to promote and no comm! tsk

nvm, was pretty fun thou

minus the part whr the supervisors keep staring at you like a hawk

all so fierce for what!

got one aunty damn cute

we even bet on some lame things like guess this boy how old

i won and she has to treat me water likka cute uh she

went causeway after work with larry and eat again

eat eat eat

the second day got better, everything was more light hearted.

i had a damn epic experience

i was supposed to take 856

but somehow i knew that 950 would go to my destination

being a lil late, i decided to take 950

it was freaking near the causeway and i missed my stop

so the bus ended up going to woodlands chekpoint

what the toot right

i was like omg shit im late then how i go down cos i saw the sign no detouring

have to ask the security officer and then suddenly one guy pop up and say the same thing

he missed his stop as well

waited and then was escorting to some office, was being asked a few questions

later on, we were being escorted to the exit

quite fun though, never experience such things before.

then later eugene went to tell everyone and everyone keep asking me tsk!

got my pay and i was like woo

went larry's house for dinner, nice

damn shag, but one good news

my body clock is back to normal!

for now i hope

and yay, half day for Larry on friday

means... more time woo

lazy to upload pix bye

going thru my head

2011-10-02T18:40:00.003+08:00

recently life's been ok.

till yesterday.

pretty much affected then i almost went mad wtf

kinda stressed up about some stuff right now

i havent start what snl wanted me to do but that can wait

worried whether the planning for qy's celebration will be successful anot?

the worst thing is idk how am i going to break the news to my parents

this is shit

all along they have been so protective and all

how am i even supposed to tell them

it's pretty shitty lor

i wonder what kinda reaction would

then again, i think i lost contact with my sec sch friends already?

i dont contact them then they wont contact me.

ok can, thn again it makes me wonder about the friendship again ):

i hate overthinking but i cant help it.

minds can go really wild.

MFING ANGSTY

2011-10-02T01:46:00.000+08:00

WHICH FAG OK I MEAN FAGGOTS CAN TREAT FAMILY THIS WAY?
FAMILY HUH? FUCK YOU. AND I MEAN IT.
im not going to help you all anymore.
im usually pretty forgiving and i know i bear grudges and all but who doesn't?
i still motherfucking forgive in the end.
DAMN ANGRY SIA CCB
after that and thats it.
please keep the fucking distance. knnbccb
srsly, doesnt mean we are not as well off as any fucking of you means we dont have any pride and dignity any thing that you dont have ok!

i need to talk to somebody i can confine to now
BUT THEN ALL ASLP ):
ok there's linda

im bursting im damn angry i wanna sleep but i cant damn hungry but angry until full
ugh
damn long never angry till this kinda standard
i dont get this mad i swear
damn rare
CB

ok im ranting to siaopo now so sorry ):

please be good :)

2011-10-01T05:26:00.002+08:00

gosh

2011-10-01T05:22:00.000+08:00

got pretty wasted last night
lucky i still knew what was i doing
i hope my parents didnt find out
and sorry baby
on a good note
i got one of my pay :D
yay!

east coast with my boy

2011-09-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

this post is a little backdated

this happened about two weeks ago

i have a question..

do i look better with double eyelid?

or not?

hmm..

L and i were in blue

coincidently

kool or what?

my hair is freakishly flat here

yucks

settled down, snacked and some pictures

awesome date ♥

finally

2011-09-28T04:21:00.000+08:00

i get to meet larry yesterday
stuffed ourselves with sakae sushi
walked around carrefour
played arcade
simple but fun :)

F1

2011-09-28T04:01:00.001+08:00

sup babies. been working at fullerton for the past week.
ok actually friday to sunday only.
made a good choice, i didnt work on monday.
what up?!

ok imma blog in detail, as detail as i can remember.

worked with nectaline and seokxian this time round
first time working for f1 actually
didnt always get the chance
doubt there will be a chance next year, will probably be having my attachment.

ohoh!
nect and i took the wrong train to city hall
it's was raffles place -.-
noobz.

again, i was assigned to work alone. ):
sigh #foreveralone
i can never escape it

was kinda blur and all
had to sign in for uniforms, tcc's timesheet and as well as punch cards

the shit was that sx and i literally laugh damn loudly at each other when we changed into our uniforms
thanks for lending me your makeup and all :)
and nect thanks for helping us to get our gay stocking socks and also hairnets :)

ate some food at the canteen which sucked and i bet they agree with me too

so i was supposed to work at the lighthouse and rooftop with jerry, roydon, thomas, daniel and some others.
50% of them were full timers or long term workers, all seem a lil distant and mean but ann, janice and edison was pretty fun and ok.

the f1 seem pretty fun and exciting for awhile
then it started to irritate the shit outta me!

i was very lonely on day 1, which is sad to say
i only made friends with jerry and roydon
and since they both are already friends, i couldnt understand what they were saying sometimes
assigned to hold a tray filled with champagne glasses and wine glasses
and at first they refused to let me pour the alcohol into the glasses
which made me a little pissed, i know we are part timers and all but please we have to learn right

yeap ok so i held my tray, serving drinks to the vips and all
the next shit thing i knew
I BROKE A GLASS
it wasn't intentional, i didn't drop the glass because i cant balance or what
it was just when i was about to put the tray on this table top
then the tray knocked against it and there goes
the glass flew onto the window making a super loud clash sound
i was like mentally oohhhhh shit nbcb but what made it worst was that the whole room was echoing ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh damn loudly and it was super depressing at that moment i didn't know where to put and hide my face.
sorry for the word vomit.

ok i was distracted gawd

ok so i ended the day feeling hungry and all beat up
from doing all the shit work and wiping cutlery and glasses
the security area for the transport home was a mad insane rush
everyone's like squeezing together you dont get to really breathe can die fo' real
nect went off first, me next and sx last
make me worried man sx
then we were like texting each other like crazy, all of us
finally got home after cabbing with 3 other fullerton fellas

second day
my legs were already giving up on me i didnt know how i managed to survive
met my girls at the mrt station and walked over
we were pretty late so we didn't get to eat
the hardest day to pass was the second day
larry's encouragement messages didnt work very well
i was struggling with myself
same thing, supposed to serve the guest
but this event was more xiong and freakier
in a sense that that the organiser was kinda like overpowering and all
escaped for a meal break with jerry we damn thick skinned
slacked and lost our way and saw sx
her there machiam clubbing but then damn warm please
headed back and we were late for fifteen minutes
ain't break time supposed to be an hour?
it was half an hour later we didnt get fucked for that.
endured for the rest of the night.
a situation came up earlier that night
we thought that we can close the bar at eleven but the event actually ends at one in the morning
so we closes it and the organiser was very pissed
very pissed
i was almost dying till nect came to join me at the lighthouse
thank god for that
made it less hard to pass time at least there's someone im very familiar with
this time i didnt had to do the ending work
heng shit
110 we all chionged down and change
we damn kiasu scared miss transport
end up i had to take transport home no cab this time round
but the wind was maximum shiokness
one of the few to reach home last
the uncle didnt know how to turn into my house area

lats and final day
the most awesome day in fullerton
met baby for lunch
he came to fetch me and we headed down to amk for some popeyes
saw some of his bball mates?
then he fetch me to the mrt and down i go for work
this time i was already dreading work my feet was feeling damn non-existant already
luckily in the changing room sx lent me some of her heating counterpain or something
kinda save my life
my feet and heel didnt hurt that much
tok some pictures in the changing room and laughed about it.
ok this time we punched in on time
directly on 5pm, on the dot.
slacked awhile on the steps before heading to the lighthouse for duty again.

for once the job was easy
and i got tipped by bringing two wine bottles into a hotel room for a short meeting for the guest
cool shit
thats like one hour of my pay

i think my feet wasnt feeling that crappy minus the toe because i was sitting down like half of the time
i sat down to fold napkins, wipe glasses
other then that i was serving and clearing

i was actually supposed to be on the roof the last day
but i ran downstairs
i hate the roof
so sian and so damn warm

thomas and daniel was assigned to the roof they came at 8pm
shiok or what
they kop alot of drinks down for us
like red wine, mixes, shots and hell lots of champagne
drank quite abit
cleared up
thought i can go back at 230 in the morning but no i had to stay till 4am
the girls left me at 230 ):

carried some cushions down
slacked at level 8 and made friends with some bodyguards

after 12pm we were practically slacking already
drinking and drinking
like some madness going around
charles which was one of our captains was drunk and was speaking gibberish to us
kinda hated it
and he told me some eggplant bullshit super lol please
we were all pretty high

kop food from the kitchen
some food is really inedible
oh i forget to mention, alvin and kenny was really nice
they keep offering me food
and i constantly keep drinking apple juice from the kitchen whenever i was thirsty
ok so i went to pee
went to help to move the chairs a lil
drowned in champagne
we just kept drinking
slacked at the stairs
and i was nuaing at some chair
slacked again and drank again
i was a lil seh already after drinking like a bottle or slightly more of champagne and everything else
peed twice and took me an hour or slightly lesser to be sober
but everyone was still high
so the guys went to move the tables up
and i had red wine again
daniel was a lil off already and i was feeling ok already at that time so i went to stand beside him to feel safer because of charles.. he was freaking me out
the red wine was at the stairway and one of the managers saw and we got scolded for that omfg
he ask me if i drank of course i lied
we all did lol
ok then it was back to work
i iron the table cloths and all
arranged everything back to order then yay end of work
i was feeling okay already wasnt that seh
i was still awake and know what i was doing so it was fine
just that i couldnt walk in a very stable mode
let's say im like 15%-20% drunk.

we finished up
when we were almost done it started raining
it was pretty much an irony
for the f1 event it didnt rain but once it's over it started raining
ok back to finishing up
we took champagne up to the roof
and steven (my captain) he was damn cool
he toasted all of us for the work done and some pretty awesome shit happen

imagine..

heavy rain, strong wind
all of us gathered up
toasting each other
sipping and dunking down champagne (depending on individual)
the weather was shiokness maximum
we all all drenched
super cold
some of them smoking
stayed a little while longer
and headed back to the lighthouse and we all slowly made our way down to the office
changed and all
all of us had transport by cab back

walked to the back of fullerton
slacked awhile more with the boys
they said im damn steady
cool shiat LOL
exchange numbers and talked cock
around 15 minutes later jerry's dad came and fetched me home
awesome

funny how most of us are from nyp

i have seen thomas countless times

everywhr - nyp, comex, outside

wtf and i even ended up working with him

this is weird

that concludes my days at fullerton
definitely memories that are worth to keep
enjoyable yet torturing
met some good people, some not so good
the guys were pretty good kinda took care of me
janice was nice :)

wowzer this is a long post
time for some shots i took back there
sorry for the quality it was taken with my noob smartphone
i have some pix but they aren't with me ):

awesome view from the roof

nightview from the lighthouse

cool shiat cigars

must have cost a bomb

track nightview

sigh damn nice the view

i kinda miss it already

random view

big bang's concert

damn sad it was day 1 and no one to high with me

and my two girls weren't with me

damn warm i hated the weather then

some food pictures (on second day)

some really inedible

like idk weird only

time for the weirdest and shittest picture of the day

im damn good make you all laugh only

cui much picture of me and my weirdly neat hair and oversized uniform now you can imagine why sx laughed, oh and this picture was taken when i was waiting for the god damn toilet while i was a little tipsy and that person inside was stucked inside or dont know what mfing long i had to use the gents, luckily jerry and roydon covered for me. we were all pretty sure that there's a guy inside the ladies. wtf.

longest post ever i swear

ok goodnight

im heading out tmr for some korean bbq yummy!

50 questions

2011-09-22T23:52:00.000+08:00

1. larry
2. outgoing
3. gd and top
4. i think im not that bad at it
5. yes
6. of course
7. yes
8. my boyfriend
9. depends on the situation
10. linda
11. why you not online?
12. cruel
13. not really
14. yes
15. my dad finally found a job again
16. definitely
17. yes
18. yes but rarely
19. yeah
20. not really
21. biting my nails, sleeping late, suck at rejecting people esp close people, giving in
22. greece
23. sometimes
24. laying on my bed
25. my tummy
26. get out of bed
27. lighter
28. my sister
29. yes
30. yeah
31. yup
32. adam levine, megan fox
33. ;psmer.,as
34. not really
35. TV
36. yes
37. er.. so? something something
38. sorta
39. f21, fairprice (LOL), zara?
40. enter a poly which i already am in
41. no not everybody
42. either im damn tired, pissed or feeling emo
43. yes, if the seem nice enough
44. outer space
45. no
46. ghosts and that the world is coming to an end
47. idk leh
48. that i mean everything to them
49. why am i telling you now lol?
50. korean, thai, french and spanish

sometimes i wonder

2011-09-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

if i'm even ever important to anyone?

what if i never exist?

will their lives be different or better?

who will cry their balls and hearts out if i just suddenly die tomorrow?

will they even realise if i go missing someday?

chinese songs

2011-09-21T01:25:00.000+08:00

used to be a fan back in primary and secondary school days
become ang moh pai and stopped listening to chinese songs
back to secondary 4 then i start hearing a little again
then stopped once again
and start during poly again

i still think no songs can beat old school chinese songs
they are so awesome

quite busy these days
idk why holidays i also like never sleep much
must be due to going out to often

going for a briefing tmr with my girls at suntec
then have to buy pants and hairnet and stockings?
eww

SRSLY
i gained two kg
this is so not good ):
fat girl, ok just let me rant and whine
im a girl and thats what girls do

i dont have much pictures with me leh
i went lan and dinner with some of my IT peeps
but didnt have any pictures taken ):

ok pictures!

food tasting at mandarin oriental yumyum!

i walk in i feel like a VIP sial

damn cool one room one table only

still got music somemore

love the utensils

really nice and special

first dish

this is damn yums lor!

sharksfin

not to my liking

too bland i think

the cod fish is awesome i tell you!

i prefer this more than the tiramisu

but still..

haha

overall the food was pretty yums

not bad i think

worst event job in our lives

went to attend my cousin's guo da li

i just keep on slping too tired

me with double eyelid sticker!

yumyum charlie brown

i think my whole life consists of eating only

not the worst but one of the weirdest chocolate i ever seen and tried!

teehee

she had to go off early

but managed to scare her later at night HAHAHAHA

swinging in the middle of orchard!

hehehe i want double eyelids

they make my eyes bigger!

group shot!

i realised i didnt take any picture with bren that day

LOL

bo concept

teehee

had a fun day out

met baby awhile later on

he's in a terrible mood lor that day

oh oh and i bought minestrone

i havent tried it yet

but i believe it will be nice man!

fat

2011-09-18T00:50:00.000+08:00

IM BECOMING A FAT GIRL AGAIN ):

going to cycle tmr
dont rain ok? please.

hehe im going to take part in some wedding thing tmr
hope it goes well
then after that i can go cycling
idk what to wear
later must decide

irritant

2011-09-17T02:00:00.000+08:00

i am freaking pissed off by mbs's management
it's like they can't handle stuff properly la
and instead of briefing us properly and all they didn't

and this bias short thing
damn irritating
attitude 48 bad
and it's damn obvious that she kan us bu shun yan
dk is we taller than her or what la
never take us seriously
idc if you are bigger than us or what but wtf.. show some respect can?
bigger than you then you show respect la hor?
wtf man..

thing is, they downsized the team
and the worst thing is that the event is ongoing for only 3 days?
erm.. 3 days?
you hire us in the first place then so guailan ask we all dont need to come
for what fuck hire us then?!
not even a single bit apologetic la
not even like 1%
*rolls eyes*

srsly, karma will fall upon you

500

2011-09-16T03:11:00.000+08:00

hi dudes and babes
i feel like im busy everyday but like with dont know what
just interviews and events to attend to
my back is feeling damn cranky now

working for a event later
i hope the people dont so guailan

ok time to sleep
goodnight!

loser like me

2011-09-11T01:50:00.000+08:00

currently hearing it, kinda nice
but it reminds me of IT fair LOLOLOL
depressing song huh in the morning before sales starts

okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
so i met my girls on thursday
set my foot into H&M with philonew
at first we thought the queue was insane but it all went pretty fast
both of us were happy with our loots
teehee
bought similar dresses, high cuts and also earrings
buy moolah stop flying away from me ):
just acia later on with shugee, joey.
bren didnt make it

friday - went to the flyer
woke up early thinking i had to go to school
but noooooooo~~
im have to go back on monday
shit monday damn busy la plz
have to go school then go to oub building for interview then food tasting
when i got no activities = no activities
one come all come liewzzzz

had a fun time at the flyer
awesome
had dinner at asian kitchen

supper at thomson with L, serene and louis
reminds me of the salt accident ohmygod
had salted caramel yums

sibeh shag when i got home last night
but im happy
first time dress like office girl (LOL right) and brought my HH clutch out
WEEEEE

ok pictures.

yumyum tomyum soup

coffee bean :)

<3 always good to meet her

love you hehe

queuing at H&M!

look at the queue

meowmeow

happy us wekeke

hehehe maiiii galzzz

my hansum bb

my favourite XLBs

yumyum time for some xlb buffet soon

♥

my thighs look super distorted here

at this time larry super excited already

his first flyer ride

likka excited uh

fat thighs omg

OUR FAVOURITE PICTURE

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

the view up there

i love this picture

step one discipline master only

i like in a hurry lolol

i never ride trishaw before

#suaku

ok peace out.

she about to lose me

2011-09-08T03:39:00.000+08:00

hello week 2 of holiday
kinda bored already
spent 4 days working at IT fair last week
pretty tiring but it's fun though
second time working with lye junjie, not bad
he's a competitve guy though
clicked with some people, didn't with some
quite a number of people i know was working at the fair
shugee, bren, joey, larry and some others came to visit
cool stuff

been eating more of home cooked food recently
im bored and i need a job
i need some money
im a broke bitch

i hope i wouldn't waste my holidays.

am a happy girl thou, i met my babes today.
nect in the afternoon for a movie
watched the cat, both of us freaked ourselves out more than the show freaked us
dinner was with linda
chat till both our mouth no more saliva HAHA
went to sasa and bought some masks
wtf mask again

my face condition likka cui these days
time for some maintenance

hello people if you have any good job, got high pay one come find lao niang here ok
im very sad, bored and broke LOL

was reading stomp just now and wah alot of news uh these days
i damn outdated

i need new stuff
clothes, shoes everything!

i am lazy to put pictures in my com
and some pictures are with my friends
i miss my friends
hopefully i get to cycle with some next tuesday!

oh oh!
i like my new dp
dk what was i thinking at the moment thou
anyone wants to hire me as their blogshop model?
i wanna tryyyyy

haha ok time to slp or smth
gonna meet my girls tmr
ok maybe time for a show first? :)