Manz, yes i realised i have not been blogging for eons. Totally flunk my Prelim 1. Totally expected it, but soooo not for english. Kinda disappointing, this shows that i can't slack anymore. Made some study pact with baby. Will do it i swear to god.
In the mood for a lil bit of thought.
1) Friends
It's been quite a while since i really had some fun with my friends. Especially Siaopo. Really miss her alot. She's got her baby, i got mine, and not forgetting to mention Qinyi too. We are frigging busy with our own lives, never had a chance to go out with them for damn long. It's either we are all busy or one of us is busy and blah. Last time, i went out with Siaopo was like alamak, april or may? When we baked cookies. We laughed, made a stupid video, chat, gossiped. Man, i miss all that. We really shall find out day out manz. One for the three of us. One for the siaopos. Haha.
Dexing, i miss you also. Damn long since we really sit down, talk about life, talk crap and all. I dont even really know how you are coping these days. ): So sorry, ahaha, preoccupied with other stuff. :/ Miss all the outings, i swear i miss accompanying you to lan lor! You're one of the best guy friends i ever have lah, got thing you sure help me der lor! How to forget you..?! LOL.
I still miss all the fun, say and blog about it liao even more miss. I miss kevin and his lmao jokes, not talking to him since i dunno when. Totally no fucking contact? Why like that? Okay lah, my fault :/ I no time for him. I missssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss you guys. Still got others lah, never mention only.
2) Studies
Dnt is ruining my life, i hate it. I have no fucking choice but to take this subject because of my stupid science. I fucking hate science. Eww, i can never be a scientist for god's sake. Especially chemistry. Hello, i have been failing science since secondary one. Why cannot learn primary school science can liao. Who cares about mols or chemicals, well so not me okay. Back to dnt. One stupid teacher is forcing us to do and chiong dnt like fuck and the others keep fucking telling us not to. Come on lah, if we had a choice we rather not do dnt. It's no fun. Ask all the dnt students, i bet they all hate it. So much for a good grade. I sacrificed my prelims, although i wont study so much, but swear i will still study for it. It's straight after June holidays for pete's sake. It's not like we can turn off our holiday mood, it's so difficult lah. Sorry, im not that kind girl who coops herself at home for ten hours to study. One example : Huiyan. I cannot be like her, at least she got strong determination what, to study and get good results, i dont have. Not everybody can. I got short attention span for studying. Eww. I better finish all by July, if not i dont care liao. CB, i dont want my prelims two to flunk also. I want pass o levels one okay. Damn dnt, i hate *. Thanks i dont want put your name and kanna bomb. CB. Knn, act nia, you also not concern one, mouth say help happy only, also never help. I like Mr ong and Mr Falzi (dunno how spell, so sorry), fucking nice teachers. From what i saw form clement's blog, thanks alot mr ong.
Please gimme some study tips, i think after dnt end, i will attend SDL everyday like yong siang. Although, i got choice not to go. I wanna study for some reason and fucking get into courses that i want. I dont care. I CANNOT BE LAZY LIKE A PORK ANYMORE. No more playing for me, i guess, i i will try as hard as possible to not slack and play liao, i cannot afford it. I see my prelim 1, alamak, like i go school never learn anything. And baby, you take charge of my stupid maths.
3) Love
Now, thinking back of all my flings and past relationships. I took alot, hell lot of wrong steps. Pretty much jerk heads. Not all though. I swear i totally regretted being together with several of them. Cannot take it. I should have used my brains to think, not using a moment of being- captured- in- love feeling. Wtf, damn dumb when i come to think of it now. I should have opened my eyes, take a clear look before deciding, well, i have actually come to my senses. After the last one.. I did alot of thinking, people hated me, if im not wrong, for being selfish and cruel, but you cant blame me. Think - what he actually done and he thinks i sooooo dont know, till now, i cannot forgive him. Whatever. Done with thinking about that. In the past, people used to judge me about my love life. Negative impressions. But i dunno for now. I was young, hot-headed, didn't know what i was really doing. I seriously dont care now, like how people who actually dont really know me think. Those who know me well, they know me for who i am now. Maybe not totally, but somehow yes. No one in this world really know what im thinking or how i feel, but some close ones to a large extent. I dont even know myself at times. But, dont judge me if you dont know me. Who are you? *Rolls eyes*
Im happily attached now :) Thank god for baby. No words can describe how much you mean to me. I love you, hehe.
Okay, it's like i typed alot, still lazy to upload photos. My eyes hurt, Bye.