i got it off my chest. yet, i feel bad. i told you, yea, that's how i rly feel. not everything can be changed or maybe return to it's original position. i have to admit, it's kinda hard to let go, but i have to. for myself. i can't live inside a shadow or something anymore. im losing track of myself. im sad, and i know you are. but we've all gotta learn. im glad, at least. nothing much's broken. this is mind blowing, tough shit. i hate it, when the mind and hearts battles.