it destroys us, mentally
way too deep
you, yes you
when i wanted you, your attention or whatever is it so bad
you treated me like shit, like i didnt exist
i cared and all
tryin to make up convos, everything
i was just barely holdin on
i decided to leave, to give up
i didnt wanna care anymore
now, you are back
now.. it's just totally vice versa
what i wanted you to be
may come a little too late now
so what should i do now?
i cant bring back what i feel since then anymore
because i had one too many disappointments
im tired of it
you dk how much i had to struggle with myself
just forget about it
and then there's another you
who keeps on thinkin of all the bad things
you are important to me
i dont see why you dont see it
it's just that i dont see you in that manner
the manner you want us to be
i just cant
we are close, you said we aren't
i dont wanna lose you
thats final
and i hate it when you think so damn negatively of me
idk if it's for me but thanks for callling me things that i dont wanna hear
this is tormenting
really
maybe im overthinking maybe im not
but thats what i wanna say, i guess?
seriously
i cant put my thoughts out in words properly
i cant show my emotions properly, i mean portray them
i just feel like i cant tell my thoughts to anyone
it's just way too complicating
i wanna slp it all away
and im contemplating now
i prefer how we all first started