apparently, only your most intermediate family are your closest people
i didn't really use to think that way till now
(some personal stuff happened)
people just can't be trusted
in a sense, fake
no, you can't trust anyone
yes, not even your bestest ever friend
you might think like oh hey there that's my best friend ever over there
he/she does things with you..
heart-to-heart talks, singing out of tune to one another, doing lame things together, teasing etc
behind he/she talks about you
yeah yeah, sounds familiar?
it's always happening..
what?
from primary to secondary to poly to yes, even to the working world out there
that's what society's about
yes, you can't trust your family members either
no, not your closest aunty, not your closest cousin
no shit, im not kidding
i have seen examples
from people i know to people out there
cousins framing each other?
families trying to gain wealth from one another using tricks?
these are not new anyway, you see them on television, read such news now and then
nothing's new
but yet, the emotional torture they give you is suffocating
beyond what you can imagine
only those that experience it before understands?
no one deserves this shit
why does people ever bother to get close to you?
yea, this happens when they have a motive
and that's equivalent to making use of you
people make use of you to do shit
i can't deny that i don't use people
what?
you don't make use of your parents? friends?
then what about the times when your lazy and lie and tell your mummy
"mummy, i today very tired (obviously a lie) can help me to wash the dishes?"
yes she does it for you because she's your mum
you wanna find out whether maybe person A talks bad about you
and you don't have the courage to ask person A
so you ask your friend to 'help you out' indirectly or not which depends
it's still making use
i really don't mean anything
people use people
yes, it's okay
that's how the world works
you have money, you hire a maid, yes you use them to help you look after you child or clean up your mess in your house, yeah you pay them but still you use them in a sense
what? it's perfectly normal
but in this term 'use' it's not like the one above
is when people use you..
to work on their bloody well deployed plan, aim for the target and when the main goal is clearly in the control in their hands.. they push you aside, churn out excuses, find you useless and then goes away. well, if this fucking person is smart enough, they still act like hey-im-so-close with you (and think they that everyone around them is perpetually dumb like they are the only fucking smart asses around) continue with the useless small you and then use you again when they need you
i can't really blog out actually happened
small things add to big things
one day everything will just pour out
things will then have to be settled
not the measly small me who have to blog about fake people
im more then who i am
i observe things really clearly though i might seem oblivious
i don't talk about it but i think about it
and im not the one you should actually mess with
i see i observe i hear
i don't go around stupidly having own conversations in my head and then conclude bullshit
people out there make me feel like it's wrong to voice out something i really think about because of judgements.
you sit down there quietly, maybe your face born to be not so accommodating
people judge you
you are young, you are pregnant, people judge you
you have tattoos, people judge you
i have a million and one thoughts in my head
i can't blog and say every single one of them out
i just sit there and think
i am human, i judge people as well
not afraid to admit it
i make use of people as well
talking about faces
i have alot.
i have one when im alone, with my parents, with him, with my friends (different faces for different friends and different relatives), with my relatives, with strangers, with lecturers.
i also got happy face, sad face, angry face, disappointed face, annoyed face, disgusted face all kinds of faces.. now are you scared?
haha, still dare to hang out with me anot?
i really hate two-faced people, everyone is two-faced, admit it.
it's about the degree of that face to show whose the real you and what's not.
well, time will show :)