it's been long, really long, since i typed and speak in proper english.
my standard of english is getting worst?
it's probably the environment and the influences around me.
life's been pretty okay.
i'm getting along well with people, in a sense.
life is stable, i like it, but i want to lay low.
everything seems better this way.
as i am getting older, time seems to pass way faster.
minus the part where i tug under the sheets or lay on my cozy sofa sleeping my life away.
i love sleeping, well who doesn't?
sleeping is like the best thing of earth.
it replenishes us, gives us some therapeutic elements as well.
i'm 18, going on 19 soon.
i look at the world out there.
there's so much for me to do.
the world is so vast, there's so much more for me to see and experience.
there are many people out there my age doing great things and then it gets me thinking.
im 18, i still act like a child sometimes, ok maybe most of the time.
i get allowance from my parents, i don't have to ability to support myself.
i grumble and grumble and whine non-stop thinking why the world is unfair.
but from the beginning, life is fair. it always is.
i think we have to work for it, to get what we really want.
you get some, you lose some.
i need some changes in my life.
i need to grow up.
but i'll always want to remain as a child because when i get older nothing ever seem or look so wonderful or perfect anymore.
our demands, regardless to ourselves or towards others goes higher and higher,
we crave for perfection. but.. fact is, no one can be perfect.
we all get tired from living in this hectic world.
tired from living in expectations - our own or others.
i think alot, i can go on thinking and thinking.
for one thing, i ought to be more positive.
and there's nothing wrong being oneself.
everyone's got their own character - good or bad.
we should accept our flaws and start to work on it, instead of hating people to criticise us for our flaws.
there's a good and bad side in everyone and anybody out there.
show me whose perfect?
& as much as we hate change, it's the only constant thing out there because nothing lasts forever.
accept it, nothing last forever.