And this way, isn't a good way.
I yearn for surprises for a really long time, no I don't get it.
I want gifts, surprises. Yes I am greedy like that.
You can't blame me for being materialistic, everyone is.
Don't tell me you are not.
Sucks to say but you make me feel that money > me.
That's like.. Wtf man.
I'm not rich but I tried so hard, gave it my all to give you what you wanted. Whatever I have promised, I think I did it.
It really amazes me how you can make me feel so shitty and crappy all over again.
You make me do things that I will not do to others, only to you and you only.
I won't even budge to their requests.
It's really sad that my abilities ain't up to yours, makes me feel inferior.
But then again, I have to put up a front because I don't wanna make you unhappy.
Fact is, I don't really feel good, mixed with a little jealousy and self pity.
Lol, life sucks man.
I'm really sad. But then, sucks to be me cos my expectations are so fucking high.
This week has been a great week, until tonight. Which just make me feel so undeserving, like how life is unfair. Like I say, happy things don't lasts.
Time has prove it time and time again.
You only do things when I ask you to do it. You know I like several stuff like you blogging. But only after several reminders then you start doing it. It makes me feel like this love ain't that sincere anymore. I really hate to feel this way, don't wish to feel this way. Thing is, I can't stop feeling this way and your actions make me feel this way.
Sad to say, the past cannot be reverted and it will never come back, no matter how fucking bad I want it.
I really wish I was in your place so I don't have to feel shitty all the time and can sleep it off as easily as you do.
Don't know why...