maybe it's just me?
me feeling pms-y and all.
i feel like i'm always the one making the effort.
when it comes to my sec sch friends or smth..
it's like im always the one texting them first and all.. asking to meet up,
asking them how are they.
5 yrs tgth?
some like rly close, but it seems like all of us have drfited apart.
i dont like it
it always seems to be that, i may look like i have alot of people surrounding me
alot of friends and all
but end of the day is till feel lonely, really lonely
i have good friends, but what does it takes, what is it rly like to have a best friend?
i rly wish to have a like super close gf, but it seems like i have none?
maybe it's me or smth, i dont have the habit of telling people my problems
neither do i like burdening people with my problems
yet i need someone to hear me out?
i dont know rly
friends and boyfriend/ the other half are like totally different matters to me
both hold importance.. utmost importance.
but different meanings.
just let me rant, i think im just feeling .. idk?
pmspmspmspms.
people may think that they dont matter to me
but in fact they do
i cant rly express my emotions well
im not affectionate and all
i wonder how some people do it so well
how some peoples' life seem so perfect?
i should rly stop envying people
all i can say is.. been a rough start.. for 2011