I hate it.
I really really hate it.
I hate expecting.
That is because it always brings me down.
I wish that you would bring me out sometimes without me planning.
Drive me out sometimes, surprise me sometimes.
Stay up for me sometimes.
Talk to me until i fall asleep first.
Be more adventurous.
Just once or twice, you'd stop thinking about the future, about the consequences and just the live the moment.
I dont cry.
Ever since W i stopped crying, i swore to myself that i wouldn't cry in front of anyone.
I didn't.
I don't want you to see me cry.
Why was i so dumb in the past anyway?
Whatever was it, i learnt my lesson.
These two days were the days that i felt that it was so damn hard to hold my tears back.
I know it's impossible for me to ask you to change or something.
I just have to live without it.
& i'm just less important.
Factors just show me.